japanerd1

people are very accepting of depression and anxiety and other mental illness until they run across someone who doesn’t fit the narrative of “aw poor sad beautiful shy girl who’s perfect in every way except she can’t see it but if you tell her you love her she’ll magically be cured” because guess what it’s not that easy it’s not that simple it doesn’t work that way mentally ill people are hard to deal with we are by turns annoying and aggressive and shy and manic and depressed we are not always fun to be around we are difficult and guess what? telling us we’re beautiful or we shouldn&

I don't know why I thought anyone would care......

I really can't handle this... I really can't. I need to get out of the house, but I can't. I'm lonely, depressed, and kinda suicidal at this point.... I don't know what to do. I tried calling the suicide hotline, and all they could do was send me to the ER, I don't need to go to the ER, I need to get out of my parents house, I need to be able to drive, I need to have control over myself and my life. I can't stand it. I just want to die.... Living on a friend's couch is better than being stuck here... but I hardly ever get to talk to any of my friends any more. I lost most of my friends when I went away to college, and when I came back I lost